Monday, April 13, 2009

相信

第一次看那录影片时,因为想起我对创造未来美好生活的决心,而流下眼泪。后来,因为一些小挫折,即使看了好几次的那录影片时,似乎好像没有什么感觉了。觉得有点不太对劲,并下定决心上车到吉隆坡去。即使用了整8至10小时的等候巴士时间、车程以及在旅程上遇到堵车的时间,不管有多累,但仍然坚持,因为我知道我要的就是这个目标。

认识了新朋友,虽然见面不到一天,但可以感受到他们的真诚及贴心。试想一位用尽了20年唱大戏的和一位卖鸡饭、烧腊的,可以那么清楚她们心中要的是什么样的生活,今日可以创造出她们要的一片天,虽然没说出口,但心里很感到佩服、尊敬。尤其是唱了20年大戏的‘大婶’,今天可以潇洒享尽生活。她给了一些指教,但其实当时心里还感到有些犹豫,我是否能做到这样吗?

今天早上,和大伙们一起吃早餐时,他告诉了我一句话:“我相信你能做得到。期待大家一起成功!”心里仍然是有那犹豫的存在……

搭车返新山时,我拿起手机便重新看了那录影片……
录影片的开头乐曲:《You Raise Me Up》、开头片段文字:“因为我们相信生活将会更美好

他:“我相信你能做得到……”
她:“如果我这个没什么受教育的可以,你们也一定可以的!”

“相信”,这两个字除了出自自己的家人和一些朋友的口中,很少会有认识不到一年的人曾经对我这么样的说过。一位陌生人、一位认识不到一年的朋友,就因为秉持这对自己的信念而相信我能办得到。越看那录影片,越是让心情受‘刺激’,不仅流下了眼泪……

2009年4月12日,晚上7点17分,当巴士快到士姑来收费站,当录影片快结束,巴士录音机所收听的频道播了这首歌:《You Raise Me Up》……

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When I first watched that video clip, it reminded me the determined decision I made to shape my desired future, causing me to drop tears. However, due to a small setback later, despite watching the clip several times, my heart seemed to feel empty. I sensed something wrong and thus decided to take a trip to Kuala Lumpur. Despite having used 8 to 10 hours to wait for the bus, on the road and even stuck in a jam, even though I was tired, I still persisted, because I know this is what I want.

I made new friends. Although we met for only a couple of hours, but I felt their sincerity and care. Thinking back of two women I have met, one who performed Chinese operas close to 20 years, and another, an ordinary chicken rice seller, who know exactly the kind of life they want and actually shaped it out today. Though my lips were sealed, but I had a sense of awe and respect for them, especially the Chinese opera performer ‘auntie’, who, today, led her life in full free control. She gave me a few tips, but at that time, I still doubted myself, “Can I actually do it?”

This morning, when I joined them for breakfast, he said this to me, “I believe you can do it. I await the time when all of us succeed!” Still, I doubted myself…

On the journey back to Johor Bahru, I picked up my phone to play that video clip again…
The background song of that clip – “You Raise Me Up
The opening words of that clip – “Because We Believe That Life Can Be Better

He: “I believe you can do it…”
She: “If I, an uneducated person can do it, you guys can also do it!”

“Believe”. Aside my own family members and several friends, it is seldom that people whom I have known for less than a year ever used that word to me. A complete stranger, a friend whom I have only known for 5 months, because of their belief in me, they believed I could do it. The more I watched that clip, the more emotions are ‘provoked’, tears started to flow…

12 April 2009, 7.17 pm, when the bus approached the Skudai toll, when the clip was about to end, the channel that the bus radio was tuned in to played “You Raise Me Up”…




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