Have I Been Too Late?

Sitting in front of the laptop
Drinking the best of soy protein isolate
Hitting my fingers on the keyboard
Thinking…

It’s that time again
The New Year seemed to have only begun yesterday
And yet it’s already the final day of the month
Really had me wondering…

Three weeks ago
I was chilling out
At the beaches of Port Dickson
With a large group of comrades
It was fun I haven’t experienced
For a long, long time
Amidst the joy and laughter
All the craziness
Recorded into a video
Recaptured the moments on Facebook
Three days ago

I begin to wonder
Where would I be
Had I not embraced this circle of friends?
Would I ever get to discover
The magical wonders of the Creator
Bestowed upon mankind
That enabled me to utilize them
To incorporate such knowledge
Into a mission
To set out to alert their unawareness
Of what they have been given by Him

Would I ever get to explore
The yet to be discovered potential in oneself
That is able to surpass its conventional form
Would I ever get to have people
Who will readily listen to you
When all others
Have almost buried their heads
Deeper and deeper into the abyss of nowhere
With hardly any time
To care to listen to people
Other than their own selves

I don’t know…

Four days ago
I drove my only sibling
To a place
For him to further shape his future
It struck me then
Although just merely an hour’s drive
From my hometown
But I am at least three hours away
The closely linked trio of the family
Are now nothing more
Than just scattered sand

Worry crept upon me
She’s almost sixty
And I’m just into my second year
Of my future-shaping exploration
Have I been too late?

The words of the Forest-Sea-Peak:
“As long as one continues
To do the correct thing
And in the right direction
There’s bound to be results”

This belief entrenched in my mind
No doubt
Please, give me the strength I want
I can’t afford to wait any longer
I want to be free
From the woes and worries
Of the mundane world
I want to go home
To where she awaits
To where my comrades await
I want to see the world
To capture and experience myself
What they did
It is not that the moon out there is rounder or brighter
It’s about LIFE!
It’s about enjoying what was bestowed upon us!
It’s about being magnificent as an Earth resident!
Not to just being a mediocre
In the confines of a small room or house

Preach me any doctrine you may
Of being able to accept what it may come
Or what we have
Such people keep saying the same words
“He is testing us
We must be patient while overcoming them”
But haven’t you seen it?
THIS IS THE TEST!
The test as to find out
Why are you so subjected to your current life?
Why are you so subjected to simply accept:
“Oh, this may come sooner or later”
You don’t do what you preach, damn it!

I was never a firm believer of a certain faith
But I go by the first principle of the Rukunegara
Every single day I continue to remain in this circle
Every moment I spent in Bugis every Wednesday
Every moment I spent in Woodlands every Friday
Every moment I spent in Genting Highlands every 3 months
Every moment I spent with my comrades in Petaling Jaya and Puchong
And every split of a second I listen to what I play
From my laptop or my phone
My beliefs in God’s existence
And his wondrous creations
Are getting more firmly rooted
Especially from the day I started to embrace the circle
HE DICTATED IT!
And I’m very glad I accepted it
Thank God...

I want to let loose
But after all those moments I spent
I knew one thing
I had to rein in
For all those which my comrades have told me
Thank you for your words
To strengthen me further
To face future challenges
Change is vital
Every small change I make
I CAN CHANGE THE WORLD!
TRUE ACHIEVEMENT, COME MY WAY!