Have I Been Too Late?

Sitting in front of the laptop
Drinking the best of soy protein isolate
Hitting my fingers on the keyboard
Thinking…

It’s that time again
The New Year seemed to have only begun yesterday
And yet it’s already the final day of the month
Really had me wondering…

Three weeks ago
I was chilling out
At the beaches of Port Dickson
With a large group of comrades
It was fun I haven’t experienced
For a long, long time
Amidst the joy and laughter
All the craziness
Recorded into a video
Recaptured the moments on Facebook
Three days ago

I begin to wonder
Where would I be
Had I not embraced this circle of friends?
Would I ever get to discover
The magical wonders of the Creator
Bestowed upon mankind
That enabled me to utilize them
To incorporate such knowledge
Into a mission
To set out to alert their unawareness
Of what they have been given by Him

Would I ever get to explore
The yet to be discovered potential in oneself
That is able to surpass its conventional form
Would I ever get to have people
Who will readily listen to you
When all others
Have almost buried their heads
Deeper and deeper into the abyss of nowhere
With hardly any time
To care to listen to people
Other than their own selves

I don’t know…

Four days ago
I drove my only sibling
To a place
For him to further shape his future
It struck me then
Although just merely an hour’s drive
From my hometown
But I am at least three hours away
The closely linked trio of the family
Are now nothing more
Than just scattered sand

Worry crept upon me
She’s almost sixty
And I’m just into my second year
Of my future-shaping exploration
Have I been too late?

The words of the Forest-Sea-Peak:
“As long as one continues
To do the correct thing
And in the right direction
There’s bound to be results”

This belief entrenched in my mind
No doubt
Please, give me the strength I want
I can’t afford to wait any longer
I want to be free
From the woes and worries
Of the mundane world
I want to go home
To where she awaits
To where my comrades await
I want to see the world
To capture and experience myself
What they did
It is not that the moon out there is rounder or brighter
It’s about LIFE!
It’s about enjoying what was bestowed upon us!
It’s about being magnificent as an Earth resident!
Not to just being a mediocre
In the confines of a small room or house

Preach me any doctrine you may
Of being able to accept what it may come
Or what we have
Such people keep saying the same words
“He is testing us
We must be patient while overcoming them”
But haven’t you seen it?
THIS IS THE TEST!
The test as to find out
Why are you so subjected to your current life?
Why are you so subjected to simply accept:
“Oh, this may come sooner or later”
You don’t do what you preach, damn it!

I was never a firm believer of a certain faith
But I go by the first principle of the Rukunegara
Every single day I continue to remain in this circle
Every moment I spent in Bugis every Wednesday
Every moment I spent in Woodlands every Friday
Every moment I spent in Genting Highlands every 3 months
Every moment I spent with my comrades in Petaling Jaya and Puchong
And every split of a second I listen to what I play
From my laptop or my phone
My beliefs in God’s existence
And his wondrous creations
Are getting more firmly rooted
Especially from the day I started to embrace the circle
HE DICTATED IT!
And I’m very glad I accepted it
Thank God...

I want to let loose
But after all those moments I spent
I knew one thing
I had to rein in
For all those which my comrades have told me
Thank you for your words
To strengthen me further
To face future challenges
Change is vital
Every small change I make
I CAN CHANGE THE WORLD!
TRUE ACHIEVEMENT, COME MY WAY!

If You Can Dream

There is a world where hope
And dreams can last for all time
A wondrous place to go
You'll know it when your heart finds

Hearing our song as old as rhyme
Hold my hand we're gonna fly
What a magic ride
And just a kiss away

If you can dream
The wish we're making
On a star is coming true
The colours of the wind will lead
My heart right back to you

'Cause if you can dream
Reflections in a diamond sky
Come shining on true
Romance will always be so new
And love will save the day
If you can dream

Someday my prince will come
It's certain as the sun rise
One day the slipper fits
Then you see the love in his eyes

It's a tale as old as time
There's no mountain we can't climb
When you're finally mine
And just a kiss away

If you can dream
The wish we're making
On a star is coming true
The colours of the wind will lead
My heart right back to you

'Cause if you can dream
Reflections in a diamond sky
Come shining on true
Romance will always be so new
And love will save the day
If you can dream

So the story goes
Never die the rose
There's a whole new world
Waiting there for us
(Waiting just for us)

If you can dream
The wish we're making
On a star is coming true
The colours of the wind will lead
My heart right back to you

'Cause if you can dream
Reflections in a diamond sky
Come shining on true
Romance will always be so new
And love will save the day
Love will save the day
If you can dream

A New Breath...

New Year
How did you celebrate it?
Once ago, I, like the majority
Would be counting down that last few seconds
And then, like the majority
Watch the display of fireworks
And then, that’s it
Just for that few seconds


7 January 2009
Was one of those official key turning points in my life
It jolted me
What have I been doing all this while?
If I continued to be doing what I’ve been doing in the past
What will I be doing in the future?
It had me thinking a lot that time


2009 has passed
Tribulations and challenges have come and went
In various shapes and sizes
In different forms and colours
But in the midst of these
Hundreds of hands were held out
By people who I never knew
People who I only got to know for not even more than a year
People who are perceived by those out there to be deceivers


God was wise
Fate had it
He dictated it
That I know them
Praise to God
For giving me some of the best gifts in my life
They are just like any other normal humans
It’s just the way they talk
The way they behave
Are different from the rest
My life was driven by the wise words from them
My heart was touched by their willingness and sincerity


Looking back
2010 may be just another new year
Any day is just another brand new day
Regardless of which year it may be
“Happy Birthday” to me, I might say
And I’m another brand new person on any day


Lighting up a lotus-shaped candle
With lips chanting 6 characters repeatedly
The trembles of the chant
Sending the blood gushing in my clasped fingers
The heart feels at peace
The mind is empty
Nothing but senses being calmed
To cleanse the soul of unfavourable thoughts
To set my mind at ease
For a new start
A new lease of life
And I’m reborn
To unleash what has being smothered inside
To change the world
Peace… Freedom… Hope…


Rebirth to charge again
To unlock the chains
To draw upon more colours into life
To feel the soul that it was meant to feel
To dream the dreams I want to dream
Be the dreams in the snows of Alaska
Or in the lights of Las Vegas
The deserts of Dubai, the autumn of Tokyo
The romance of Paris, the lush greenery of Lakeview
Together with faces of the people
Who are part of what gave a new breath into my life


Truly though seem to be surreal
This world can be so magical…