Monday, September 13, 2010

Gagasan Malaysia...

9 Ogos 1965, secara berasingan dalam persidangan tergempar Dewan Rakyat di Kuala Lumpur untuk meminda Perlembagaan dan satu temuramah di Radio & Television Singapore (RTS) di Caldecott Hill,

Tunku Abdul Rahman Putra Al-Haj:
“In all the 10 years of my leadership in this house, I have never had a duty so unpleasant as this to perform.”

Lee Kuan Yew:
“All my life, my whole adult life, I have believed in merger and unity of the two territories. We are connected by geography, the economy and ties of kinship. It broke everything we stood for…”


Tinggal lagi tiga hari seluruh tanahair akan menyambut peristiwa penting dalam sejarah 47 tahun yang lalu secara rasmi buat kali pertama. Biarpun aku pernah kata “Langkah mayat aku dulu jika hendak kemuka cadangan kepada aku supaya menukar kewarganegaraan aku”, tapi semakin dekat hari itu menjelang, aku terfikir akan soalan ini, “Apakah Malaysia kita hari ini masih yang diidam-idamkan oleh moyang-moyang kita dahulu?”

Biarpun dihubung oleh dua buah jambatan yang jumlah jaraknya sekitar 3 km, namun kedua-dua belah jambatan dikawal oleh pihak keselamatan berkuasa, mengehadkan orang ramai yang keluar masuk tanah semenanjung dan pulau kepada mereka yang memegang dokumen perjalanan yang sah sahaja. Telah bertahun-tahun penduduk dari kedua-dua berang yang memegang dokumen tersebut merungut terpaksa menghadapi kesesakan lalulintas pada waktu kemuncak saban hari, terutamanya tambak yang dibina pada zaman yang lebih awal itu. Lebih-lebih lagi kini dengan pembinaan kompleks kastam, imigresen dan kuarantin baru di semenanjung yang lebih jauh ke dalam kawasan bandar dan terpaksa dihubung dengan laluan yang bentuknya macam ular terpukau.

Demografi semenanjung dan pulau tidak banyak berbeza. Sama-sama mengenali satu sama lain dengan komposisi etnik yang serupa, kepelbagaian bahasa, budaya, adat resam dan agama yang tiada perbezaan ketaranya. Sudah menjadi pengetahuan umum bahawa kita semua bagaikan “abang adik”. Sama-sama meraikan perpaduan dalam kepelbagaian, padahal boleh jadi tidak kesampaian hati untuk dibelah bahagi, tetapi yang pedihnya telah membiarkan campur tangan politik menyelinap masuk kehidupan para rakyat, mencetuskan rantaian peristiwa yang akhirnya memaksa pembelahan itu mengambil tempatnya dalam catatan sejarah. Seperti apa yang pernah dinyatakan, “Kita dihubungi secara tempat, ekonomi dan talian persaudaraan…”

Mungkin generasi hari ini tidak dapat rasa kepedihan Tunku ketika mengemukakan usul untuk meminda undang-undang tubuh negara yang berdaulat agar mengeluarkan semua perkataan nama “Singapura” yang muncul di dalamnya selepas pindaan terakhir pada 1963. Bukan suruh “keluar” maka keluar, “pisah” maka pisah, tetapi atas dasar agar tiada titisan darah mereka yang tidak berdosa ditumpahkan (walaupun tetap berlaku 4 tahun kemudian). Detik itu sejurus menetapkan hakikat bahawa Malaysia-Singapura tidak terlepas daripada menghadapi nasib yang pernah atau masih menimpa Korea Utara-Korea Selatan, China-Taiwan, Vietnam Utara-Vietnam Selatan serta India-Pakistan.

Bukannya generasi orang tua tidak pernah menyebut kemungkinan penyatuan semula berlaku, tetapi pada ketika kemungkinan itu disebut secara umum, barisan politik tanah besar pula menafikan kemungkinan tanpa betul-betul bertanya kepada rakyat jelata apakah mungkin ianya boleh berlaku. Ada yang mungkin berkeras mulut, tetapi isi hati siapa yang tahu? Mungkin boleh jadi berlaku, tetapi apakah syarat-syarat yang akan memastikan supaya perceraian itu tidak akan berlaku untuk kali kedua? Mungkinkah model pengembalian semula Hong Kong dan Macau kepada China itu boleh dicontohi? Aku tak pasti. Tetapi jikalau ada kemahuan, pasti ada jalan di situ.

Konflik intra-penduduk: Istilah baru? Tidak. Siapa jua boleh mencipta istilah sedemikian, asalkan kena pada tempat yang sepatutnya. Bagi mereka yang menjadi pemastautin di semenanjung dan pulau di sebelah barat rantau ini, sudah pasti tahu. Bagi mantan Borneo Utara dan bekas jajahan Brooke di sebelah timur Laut China Selatan, aku tidak akan cuba memasuki dua wilayah ini ke dalam perbincangan ini kerana jelas senario di dua belah laut adalah jauh berbeza.

Konflik apa? Bukan, aku bukan menuding jari kepada mana-mana konflik terbuka, tetapi aku juga amat letih dan penat mendengar dan melihat mereka yang masih mahu menyimpan ‘dendam konflik’ sedemikian. Macam-macam label yang hendak dikait-kaitkan terhadap mana-mana kumpulan, baik mereka yang sawo matang, yang kuning dan yang gelap, dengan gelaran binatang haram, kafir, sepet, pisang, hitam dan sebagainya.

Wahai saudara saudari, susahkah untuk mencungkil keindahan di sebalik kepelbagaian kita ini?! Apakah mesej yang kita sampaikan kepada generasi depan kita? Harapan yang cerah atau zaman kegelapan yang mendatang? Kalau anda sendiri, yang mana anda suka? Jangan alpa bahawa segala yang telah dipersetujui oleh bapa-bapa kemerdekaan kita telahpun termeterai dalam Perlembagaan, sudah tidak dapat dipersoal-soalkan lagi! Ini tidak seharusnya menjadi pembelah yang memisahkan sesama kita, bahkan kita sendiri perlu mengawasi arus politik dalam negara yang cuba menjadi pemisah itu (aku enggan menyatakan nama pihak yang mana satu, tetapi pada pandangan aku, dua-dua belah itu pun ada masalah sendiri, tidak ada sesiapa yang sempurna, sudahlah manusia tidak sempurna, apatah lagi sekumpulan manusia?).

Yang sawo matang yang sedar, asalkan saja di tanah semenanjung ini mahupun di sebelah timur Laut, mereka bukannya ada pilihan lain, malah mereka juga ada kehampaan yang walaupun dinyatakan secara jujur tetapi dinafi lain.

Yang kuning yang masih merungut tak henti, segala yang asasi sebenarnya terpelihara, bukannya dihalau atau dipulau. Sebenarnya masih boleh pergi dengan lebih jauh lagi, melepasi ‘kurungan’ yang dicipta oleh …. diri sendiri. Ya, diri sendiri! Cuba nilailah diri, apakah yang telah anda lakukan dalam memainkan peranan dalam masyarakat sebegini yang telah menjadi takdir-Nya, selain daripada terus menyertai mereka yang sama-sama merungut benda yang sama?

Yang gelap, sebenarnya perangai anda dalam komuniti ini adalah amat dipuji. Anda mudah bergaul. Yang sedihnya ialah ‘perbalahan’ sesama sendiri, yang masih mahu membeza-bezakan latar belakang dan asal usul diri untuk menentukan kedudukan dalam masyarakat diri.

Yang lain, aku tidak banyak komen, padahal mereka yang berkahwin campur itu memang jauh lebih awal mudah bergaul, mereka di seberang timur Laut itu tak kisah sangat, asalkan dapat bertutur bahasa kebangsaan, sama-sama menjadi sahabat. Syabas dan teruskanlah.

Ke manakah kita yang 25 juta di Malaysia dan hampir 4 juta di Singapura menghala?

Selamat Hari Malaysia buat warganegara Gagasan Malaysia, baik yang sekarang dan akan datang mahupun yang dahulu.



Jata Malaysia dari 16 September 1963 sehingga 8 Ogos 1965

Sunday, April 18, 2010

希望











这个力量无所不在
它的超强能力完全是一般人都无法去了解
它的存在无人视之,被当作是一种理所当然的事情
而唯有能够掌握它的人没有几个
但是也就是因为能够掌握这个力量的原理
能够让着一些人征服一切达如所愿

“盯着希望走,不要看伤口
你一直看伤口,你老拔它
原本是一个小伤口,却被你拔成大伤口”

一般人很奇怪
很喜欢给自己添麻烦
不如意的事情好像天要塌下来似的
整天忧愁、愁眉苦脸
想、想、想……想到自己的脑子就快烧坏
想到心理形成负担
结果本来心身本来没有怎样却被自己搞到快垮了
其实何必要这样呢?
当别人给你一句有希望的话
其实是一种暗示,要让自己过得好一些
被问到有何办法解决,事实上未必真的有办法
但是老去想它,需要吗?
性命可要珍惜啊!
要让自己过得好一点
才能有能力去应付比现在所面对的事情还要大的问题

“好好读书,出来找份好工作
娶个好老婆(嫁给个好老公)
找个好归宿,拿退休金
安享晚年”

听起来耳熟能详
最后一句却是出了很大的矛盾
问问三、四十年前的人士
“那为何你又不打工?”
“当年没有机会读书,不一样
所以得出来闯“

但是现在有何区别呢?
奇怪啦……
读了很多书就得打工?
打工真的能够给到保障吗?
万一被‘连根拔起’
怎么安享晚年?怎么好好去孝顺长辈?

现在和以前没有区别
出来闯是给一个人在20至30岁的时期
一个很好摸索、成长的时机
欲闯的方式和模式不只一个
但是偏偏就有些模式不受理解
怕失败、怕吃亏、怕损失
那么请问以前又不怕发生这回事?
原因何在?
希望晚辈有所成长,有所成就
但是晚辈自己找到了一个平台
却不愿意给,激烈反对
“人生有三种‘穷’法
第一种是穷知识,第二种是穷朋友
第三种穷是最糟糕、最穷的——穷希望”
要说不要让他们走回以前自己走过的路
那倒不如说不愿他们和自己一起继续
度过煎熬、苦难、没有保障的日子
继续在那穷希望的大圈子里兜了几百全都兜不出来
“一步一步走,不会轻易放松”
“只要做对事情,一定会有好结果”……

Friday, April 16, 2010

我的天空我的梦 My Sky My Dream

旋律在我脑海中 不知不觉地在转动
In my distant memories
The melody keeps on replaying

我的心随着感觉走 节拍也跟着走
My heart follows what it feels
So does the music beat

回想我的小时候 钢琴声会让我感动
Looking back when I was a kid
Touched by the piano rhythm

好想靠近也很想懂 却没机会碰
Oh I wish to get close to know
Never had a chance to touch it

只能躲在角落 听别人的弹奏
Only able to hide in the corner
Listening to them play the piano

安慰自己说 我会不同
I console to myself
I will be different!

有我的天空我的梦 我的未来不是梦
There will be a sky of mine, my dream
My future is not a dream

我没有别人富有 但我能坚持到最后
I may not have what others do
But I will strive until the end

为我的天空我的梦 创出自己的天空
For my sky, for me dream
I shall colour my own sky

我一定到最后
I will until the end

每个脚步不会放松
Not relax in my journey

我会一步一步走 不会轻易的放松
I will step up in every step I take


Monday, February 1, 2010

Have I Been Too Late?

Sitting in front of the laptop
Drinking the best of soy protein isolate
Hitting my fingers on the keyboard
Thinking…

It’s that time again
The New Year seemed to have only begun yesterday
And yet it’s already the final day of the month
Really had me wondering…

Three weeks ago
I was chilling out
At the beaches of Port Dickson
With a large group of comrades
It was fun I haven’t experienced
For a long, long time
Amidst the joy and laughter
All the craziness
Recorded into a video
Recaptured the moments on Facebook
Three days ago

I begin to wonder
Where would I be
Had I not embraced this circle of friends?
Would I ever get to discover
The magical wonders of the Creator
Bestowed upon mankind
That enabled me to utilize them
To incorporate such knowledge
Into a mission
To set out to alert their unawareness
Of what they have been given by Him

Would I ever get to explore
The yet to be discovered potential in oneself
That is able to surpass its conventional form
Would I ever get to have people
Who will readily listen to you
When all others
Have almost buried their heads
Deeper and deeper into the abyss of nowhere
With hardly any time
To care to listen to people
Other than their own selves

I don’t know…

Four days ago
I drove my only sibling
To a place
For him to further shape his future
It struck me then
Although just merely an hour’s drive
From my hometown
But I am at least three hours away
The closely linked trio of the family
Are now nothing more
Than just scattered sand

Worry crept upon me
She’s almost sixty
And I’m just into my second year
Of my future-shaping exploration
Have I been too late?

The words of the Forest-Sea-Peak:
“As long as one continues
To do the correct thing
And in the right direction
There’s bound to be results”

This belief entrenched in my mind
No doubt
Please, give me the strength I want
I can’t afford to wait any longer
I want to be free
From the woes and worries
Of the mundane world
I want to go home
To where she awaits
To where my comrades await
I want to see the world
To capture and experience myself
What they did
It is not that the moon out there is rounder or brighter
It’s about LIFE!
It’s about enjoying what was bestowed upon us!
It’s about being magnificent as an Earth resident!
Not to just being a mediocre
In the confines of a small room or house

Preach me any doctrine you may
Of being able to accept what it may come
Or what we have
Such people keep saying the same words
“He is testing us
We must be patient while overcoming them”
But haven’t you seen it?
THIS IS THE TEST!
The test as to find out
Why are you so subjected to your current life?
Why are you so subjected to simply accept:
“Oh, this may come sooner or later”
You don’t do what you preach, damn it!

I was never a firm believer of a certain faith
But I go by the first principle of the Rukunegara
Every single day I continue to remain in this circle
Every moment I spent in Bugis every Wednesday
Every moment I spent in Woodlands every Friday
Every moment I spent in Genting Highlands every 3 months
Every moment I spent with my comrades in Petaling Jaya and Puchong
And every split of a second I listen to what I play
From my laptop or my phone
My beliefs in God’s existence
And his wondrous creations
Are getting more firmly rooted
Especially from the day I started to embrace the circle
HE DICTATED IT!
And I’m very glad I accepted it
Thank God...

I want to let loose
But after all those moments I spent
I knew one thing
I had to rein in
For all those which my comrades have told me
Thank you for your words
To strengthen me further
To face future challenges
Change is vital
Every small change I make
I CAN CHANGE THE WORLD!
TRUE ACHIEVEMENT, COME MY WAY!



Friday, January 1, 2010

If You Can Dream





There is a world where hope
And dreams can last for all time
A wondrous place to go
You'll know it when your heart finds

Hearing our song as old as rhyme
Hold my hand we're gonna fly
What a magic ride
And just a kiss away

If you can dream
The wish we're making
On a star is coming true
The colours of the wind will lead
My heart right back to you

'Cause if you can dream
Reflections in a diamond sky
Come shining on true
Romance will always be so new
And love will save the day
If you can dream

Someday my prince will come
It's certain as the sun rise
One day the slipper fits
Then you see the love in his eyes

It's a tale as old as time
There's no mountain we can't climb
When you're finally mine
And just a kiss away

If you can dream
The wish we're making
On a star is coming true
The colours of the wind will lead
My heart right back to you

'Cause if you can dream
Reflections in a diamond sky
Come shining on true
Romance will always be so new
And love will save the day
If you can dream

So the story goes
Never die the rose
There's a whole new world
Waiting there for us
(Waiting just for us)

If you can dream
The wish we're making
On a star is coming true
The colours of the wind will lead
My heart right back to you

'Cause if you can dream
Reflections in a diamond sky
Come shining on true
Romance will always be so new
And love will save the day
Love will save the day
If you can dream

A New Breath...

New Year
How did you celebrate it?
Once ago, I, like the majority
Would be counting down that last few seconds
And then, like the majority
Watch the display of fireworks
And then, that’s it
Just for that few seconds


7 January 2009
Was one of those official key turning points in my life
It jolted me
What have I been doing all this while?
If I continued to be doing what I’ve been doing in the past
What will I be doing in the future?
It had me thinking a lot that time


2009 has passed
Tribulations and challenges have come and went
In various shapes and sizes
In different forms and colours
But in the midst of these
Hundreds of hands were held out
By people who I never knew
People who I only got to know for not even more than a year
People who are perceived by those out there to be deceivers


God was wise
Fate had it
He dictated it
That I know them
Praise to God
For giving me some of the best gifts in my life
They are just like any other normal humans
It’s just the way they talk
The way they behave
Are different from the rest
My life was driven by the wise words from them
My heart was touched by their willingness and sincerity


Looking back
2010 may be just another new year
Any day is just another brand new day
Regardless of which year it may be
“Happy Birthday” to me, I might say
And I’m another brand new person on any day


Lighting up a lotus-shaped candle
With lips chanting 6 characters repeatedly
The trembles of the chant
Sending the blood gushing in my clasped fingers
The heart feels at peace
The mind is empty
Nothing but senses being calmed
To cleanse the soul of unfavourable thoughts
To set my mind at ease
For a new start
A new lease of life
And I’m reborn
To unleash what has being smothered inside
To change the world
Peace… Freedom… Hope…


Rebirth to charge again
To unlock the chains
To draw upon more colours into life
To feel the soul that it was meant to feel
To dream the dreams I want to dream
Be the dreams in the snows of Alaska
Or in the lights of Las Vegas
The deserts of Dubai, the autumn of Tokyo
The romance of Paris, the lush greenery of Lakeview
Together with faces of the people
Who are part of what gave a new breath into my life


Truly though seem to be surreal
This world can be so magical…


Wednesday, December 23, 2009

饮恨

每每越过那狭窄海峡时,始终感到有些沉重
每每上巴士返回那岛时,都很想再回头多望一眼
但是回望了又怎样?
路是迈前走下去的,别无选择

就这样
不知不觉已被海峡把自己和家人、伙伴和朋友们隔开有一年之余了

突然很想家
不管是在河口的那个小城市
或是有红屋的那个历史城
还是夜晚永远都有活动的首都

好想再见家人、伙伴和朋友
多看一眼
多聊几句
多些欢乐时光

有点累
有点不耐烦
只有苍天听得到我的呐喊

告诉自己
要相信
一切只是暂时
我所属的地方
永远是在自己的土地上

求力量
永远赐予我
让我继续熬过这关
一定要!

Monday, November 30, 2009

我要回吉隆坡……

一个属于我自己的地方……

哈芝节配上周末长假以来到了尾声。我乘了星期天晚上八点的车往新山回去。车还没开就已经在座位上睡着了。也不知道搞什么鬼做了一场怪梦,苏醒时已经是九点钟了,从座位远望一下,巴士已被困在高速公路上的堵车中,慢速行驶。发现连往亚逸淡 (Ayer Hitam) 的出口都还距离5公里!九点了连半路都还没有?!看来回到新加坡又要搭贵的士了……

不过,那一场梦也够怪却很简单。怎么说呢?可以说是我完全不记得梦的内容。真的是一点印象都没有。脑子里完全空白。唯记得梦中有一个声音在叫。是个小男孩的声音。有带点哭泣。那个小男孩在叫:“我要回吉隆坡……”

觉得心里会有点不安。这究竟是什么事情?为什么这个声音会在我脑海梦中出现?难道是心底里的心声?我不知道。也许,也有可能。越想越觉得不是味道。往返新山的高速公路却不像往吉隆坡的高速公路一样,路上两边都比较黑暗,顿时加剧心里的不安。或许是一种暗示,是一种提醒,提醒自己真的要放快速度及努力了,但究竟从何做起?回到基础动作?拿出了耳机,装在手机上,打开了手机的Walkman功能,再继续听听李老师的声音,他的讲解、他的分析、他的鼓励、他的劝导,心里也开始慢慢地平静下来。是时候了……

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

WE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE!

郑文风: “智者的选择是愚者的脚步……行业从来不分高低贵贱,但是事情有价值之分!”

Sarina Dewi Chellaiah: “Ya, saya tahu saya memang gila, tapi saya bukan bodoh!”


A lot of people may not display it outwardly in front of me, but whether they are sneering or jeering at me behind my back, I don’t know. Only He knows. Only I know what am I doing and why am I doing it. I don’t simply just thrust myself into it just because I was invited to. I myself personally have declined the inviter before. Even I was surprised myself when I made the turnabout 2 weeks later after a life-changing incident. I believe that He had decreed that I go through it to see for myself what more lies ahead in store for me.


Nazlee Abdul Aziz: “In every adversity, there lies an opportunity.”


Some envy at me for having seen through it at such a short time. For me, I am human just like anyone else. I have my own dignity to be aware of, not to allow it to be simply trampled upon. I have my own sense to what it really means to be a human, an individual. I am not about to rest my present laurels in a comfort zone. Not especially when I am the main pillar for support. Some may count themselves lucky for having elder brothers and sisters who bring home the cash, but definitely this doesn’t mean that they don’t have to worry about themselves.


“What will you do if the world collapsed on you one day? Are you prepared for it?”


No doubt, this is my primary concern ever since I entered working life. The main pillar of support must not be anyhow affected. The primary reason why I chose to do it – to strengthen the pillar itself. To seek the life I have always wanted. I am dignified like anyone else is supposed to be; I have my own right to live the life I wanted, to pursue my dreams. Once you retire and you can live the life you want? Yes, but when exactly? When I’m more than 50 years old? How long can I still live? Only He knows how long I can continue to live. But if I happen to be gone before I can really live my life, would it still be meaningful?





郑文风: “人来到这世界上总要死,但是是以什么的方式去死呢?……人死有四大结果;20%的人死得不瞑目、60%的人死得不了了之、10%的人死得心安理得、10%的人死得无怨无悔”

郑文风: “苏格拉底先生曾说过:满大街的人30岁都是死的,60岁才埋的!人过了30就再也没有了梦想,再也没有追求。”

李防之: “人生有两件事;一个是做多过享受,一个是享受多过做。”

Dr. Abdul Aziz Kechil: “What is it that you want in life?”

白君毅: “成功者是去想尽办法去增加收入,失败者则是缩小梦想去配合收入。”


The saddest reality in life, most people tend to no longer dare to dream after they pass their thirties. Why? Dreams are supposed to drive one’s direction in life. Without dreams, where are we? Where have we gone to? At crossroads without signboards? I have experienced that since about 1 year before I exited the doors of ivory tower. Where to? How to go about it? Is this really the path I’m going to take? I had no concrete answer then. It was depressing.


郑文风: “人生是计划出来的。前半段没有计划好,这一段就注定补前半段的课。你再往后面拖,再往后面推,更多难题会等着你。”

Zulkifli Malek: “Saya bukannya bekerja, tetapi saya DIKERJAKAN!”

罗芳民: “我的伙伴晓得即使他是专业人士,但和巴刹的auntie没有两样!有做就有,没做就没有。”


Is what you are doing now worth it? Is what you have now and what you have achieved worth the efforts you have put in? How much exactly is one worth? Every single one of us is irreplaceable, every single one of us is unique in his or her own way. For centuries, 80% of the people have subjected themselves to a fate of being undervalued.


Amy Chew: “成功速度等于改变速度”

黄桂珠: “一个人的成功在于改变,一个人的失败在于等待”

黄静陶: “改变很痛苦,但不改变更痛苦!”

郑文风: “成功只有一个理由,不成功可以有一千万个理由。人生只有三天;昨天、今天和明天。昨天已经过去,明天还没到来,但是今天一定要想好才过。有三件事不能等;孝顺不能等、孩子的教育不能等、自己的成功不能等。”

Liew Rik Foong: “Who we are today are the results of the decisions we made yesterday. Who we are tomorrow are the decisions we have made today.”

佛陀: “我们现在的一切都是过去思想的结果”

Ng Pik Lai: “Success belongs to those who believe.”

Saleha: “Success is the natural consequence of consistently applying the basic fundamentals.”

Richard DeVos: “You’ll never know what you might accomplish until you try. That truth is so simple that some people completely overlook it.”


That’s right. We decide. Succeed or not? Success is meant for everyone, but have we seized the right opportunity to achieve it? There are many opportunities out there, but which is worth it? Which has the clearest results and the least uncertainties? Why opt for a path that will cause you to forsake your freedom, the most personal thing to every one of us, in the long term?


郑文风: “很多人都怕老,是因为怕老了没故事。还记得你爷爷的爷爷的名字吗?如果不记得,就证明我们这几代没有好好努力过。一代又一代不努力,就这样草根。如果我们这一代不做出改变,我们为什么还给下一代生人手?”

理查•狄维士: “辉煌的传统可以继承,但辉煌的成就要靠自己创造。”


Has it not come across to your mind that you wanted a life full of glamour, a life that will continue to allow you to remain a legacy to your descendants, a life full of stories and valuable lessons for them to learn and look upon?

A lot of people have come and go. Those who have continued to stay know one thing, what they are doing is worth the effort they have put in, including those who have passed their 60s, 70s and 80s. They still have dreams, they still have life goals to pursue, they realize they still have much more to achieve in life than just idling their lives away.





林海峰: “(很多人)已经不知道自己有多么了不起,已经不知道在未来可以有多大的成就……”

郑文风: “人生最凄惨的是一觉睡到天亮,两眼望着天花板,真的不知道该干点什么!”


Those who have left failed to see the bigger picture. They have forgotten what they have came for. Ask yourself: Which flight of steps towards success does not have its obstacles? There’s no free meal in this world. Other paths equally have their obstacles, but are the destinations clear enough? I had my challenges, just like anyone else, just like anyone up at the top who have tirelessly continued to encourage for people like me to not give up ascending the hike. Every obstacle must be overcome, they have done it before and everyone else needs to go through the same way. I dared not to be among those who have left and gave up, for I know only one thing: If I gave up, I will return back to the days where I got lost, where I would have been among the 60% to spend away my time doing something that may not guarantee me a secure future, where I would have lost the ability to dream. I would be nothing short of a sorrowful individual to continue to be among the 80% to slog out my entire life for the richer 20%. My life would have been short of being meaningful and full of colours.


傅后坚: “我不管你的条件,我不管你的能力,我也不管你多厉害,假设你不相信,你是不可能成功的。”

P.W. Chew: “你这一生有没有赢过?不要输得很惨!”

李防之: “当你有梦想的时候,你永远看不到挑战!我相信总有一天,你也会跟我一样,从没有做到什么都有!”

郑文风:“那些只会和你一起吃,一起玩,不叫做朋友,而是生活上的玩伴。真正的朋友是和你一起共商未来……享受人生不是坐在豪宅里孤独喝一杯酒,享受人生是可以有良师益友。”


I have found more than what’s worth coming into this circle. A circle which I have always wished for, the spirit of comradeship continues to lie within, to continue to encourage every single individual to spur on, to unleash the potential within, to continue to inculcate the spirit that says: YOU CAN DO IT! No one shall dissuade me from doing what’s worth, I have gotten tired and do not wish to get tired any further from the harshest realities of the environment of the 80%, but I, like everyone else in this circle, will continue to invite everyone we cared for to join us together on the cruise, to continue to seek for the most beautiful things we have dreamt for. Every single individual is by his or her own, independent, special, unique and wholly respected in this circle. No one is above or below the other. The camaraderie that we shared shall continue to remain part of a life laden with colours and legacies……


Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Self-Rejection

This is not something I would usually want to talk about. But something happened that had made me to unwittingly cast myself into this pit. Something that may be considered as a large slap in the face, but actually, it’s just part and parcel of one’s own development, as long as it doesn’t involve the life and dignity of someone else. My reason being if I can’t actually do this simple little thing properly, how am I supposed to do it big?

Success is not measured by how much one has attained or gained, but more of how many people one can help to do the same thing. I have no qualms in actually ringing up my mentor of 9 months, whom I have placed full trust since Day 1, some 400 kilometers away from where he is. I told him I wanted to do it all over again, at the very least set that little thing right before moving on to something big.

Looking back at my cell phone call register, I realize we have talked for about 45 minutes. Well, I guess that’s a true friend for you, who’s willing to help you to analyze things with a cool mind, going into details and telling you how you should deal with it rather than cast oneself into self-rejection. One thing that didn’t cross my mind then was “If I had actually rejected myself, wouldn’t I have rejected how my other faithful friends and partners looked at me so favorably?” They did not give up on me, but giving up on oneself could be very much the scariest thing ever.

Despite my achievement being yet anywhere close to that of my mentors’ as I was only a greenhorn of less than a year, but I was recognized as a leader for my abilities and camaraderie, not by comparison of my level of achievement with theirs, because human dignity is placed above anything else in this circle. As I was writing this, I recalled how Madam Zheng Wenfeng said, “Careers have never been classified as that of high or low standard, but definitely all matters can be differentiated by the values they represent.” The values emphasized within this circle itself are the ones that have constantly attracted me to continue to remain in it because it is where I seek solace and it is where I seek answers to my questions.

“Are you telling me that you are denying what you have done and contributed in the past?” Committing mistakes is part and parcel of life, of growth and self-development and progressive learning, as long as it didn’t involve taking someone else’s life. I have somewhat exploded the whole matter into a big issue, when it was actually just a small one to get over with. Like how Mr. Lee Yin Chuan described, “When one tends to enlarge problems, dreams will distance themselves.” Recalling how the older mentor of my mentor actually dissuaded him from shutting up himself due to a loss, I was told to “come back”…

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Tears To An Event of Nearly 1 Year Ago...



When was the last time you seen this scene? Of people who mostly do not used to know each other at all, came to know each other under a wonderful oppotunity, congregating at this place, linking and waving hands, singing one song in unison, full of emotion and energy. Even the people who do not know the language of the song are influenced to tune into the same motion.



The song goes like this:

这些年 一个人 风也过 雨也走
All these years, being alone, braved through winds and rain
有过泪 有过错 还记得坚持甚麽
Tears have flowed, made mistakes, still remembered what I persisted for

真爱过 才会懂 会寂寞 会回首
Truly loved and understood, felt alone, looking back
终有梦 终有你 在心中
Realized finally, I have dreams and you in my heart

朋友一生一起走 那些日子不再有
Friends walk together throughout life, those days will never be again
一句话 一辈子 一生情 一杯酒
One sentence, forever, cheers to our relationship
朋友不曾孤单过 一声朋友 你会懂
Friends will never be alone, by the word 'friend' you will comprehend
还有伤 还有痛 还要走 还有我
Sorrow and pain endured together, I walk together by your side


* These snapshots were captured from the recording of the event that took place at Stadium Putra Bukit Jalil in June 2008. I was not present at that time.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

GET ME OUT OF THIS CAGE! ARGH!!!!

I’m like a canary whose life is committed inside a cage. Although I’m being fed properly with seeds and water everyday, but it’s always the same thing. I have to continuously take good care of the feathers on my body so that I continue to look shiny and beautiful. Sometimes, it takes a few more twitters and a few more melodious tunes to earn something extra and something different from my owner. But I can’t possibly do this everyday or my throat will expire itself before it is supposed to. In the end, I just have to contend with the same seeds and plain water everyday and only get the extras once in a while.

But in God I shall believe, I shall one day bring down, crumble, damage or destroy the cage bars that surround and enclose me to spread my wings and soar high up in the sky. And until that day comes, I SHALL NEVER GIVE UP!

Thursday, April 23, 2009

The Day It Shall Come



看看以上这图片。想象如果图片当中是自己和志同道合的朋友在同时成功一起拥抱庆祝成功的喜悦……

Take a look at the picture above. Picture yourself and your comrades of the same goal as these two people in the picture embrace each other in tears of joy celebrating the success attained…

Lihatlah gambar di atas. Gambarkan anda dan juga rakan seperjuangan anda seperti dua orang dalam gambar ini berpeluk sesama diri meraikan kejayaan yang dicapai…

Monday, April 13, 2009

相信

第一次看那录影片时,因为想起我对创造未来美好生活的决心,而流下眼泪。后来,因为一些小挫折,即使看了好几次的那录影片时,似乎好像没有什么感觉了。觉得有点不太对劲,并下定决心上车到吉隆坡去。即使用了整8至10小时的等候巴士时间、车程以及在旅程上遇到堵车的时间,不管有多累,但仍然坚持,因为我知道我要的就是这个目标。

认识了新朋友,虽然见面不到一天,但可以感受到他们的真诚及贴心。试想一位用尽了20年唱大戏的和一位卖鸡饭、烧腊的,可以那么清楚她们心中要的是什么样的生活,今日可以创造出她们要的一片天,虽然没说出口,但心里很感到佩服、尊敬。尤其是唱了20年大戏的‘大婶’,今天可以潇洒享尽生活。她给了一些指教,但其实当时心里还感到有些犹豫,我是否能做到这样吗?

今天早上,和大伙们一起吃早餐时,他告诉了我一句话:“我相信你能做得到。期待大家一起成功!”心里仍然是有那犹豫的存在……

搭车返新山时,我拿起手机便重新看了那录影片……
录影片的开头乐曲:《You Raise Me Up》、开头片段文字:“因为我们相信生活将会更美好”

他:“我相信你能做得到……”
她:“如果我这个没什么受教育的可以,你们也一定可以的!”

“相信”,这两个字除了出自自己的家人和一些朋友的口中,很少会有认识不到一年的人曾经对我这么样的说过。一位陌生人、一位认识不到一年的朋友,就因为秉持这对自己的信念而相信我能办得到。越看那录影片,越是让心情受‘刺激’,不仅流下了眼泪……

2009年4月12日,晚上7点17分,当巴士快到士姑来收费站,当录影片快结束,巴士录音机所收听的频道播了这首歌:《You Raise Me Up》……

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When I first watched that video clip, it reminded me the determined decision I made to shape my desired future, causing me to drop tears. However, due to a small setback later, despite watching the clip several times, my heart seemed to feel empty. I sensed something wrong and thus decided to take a trip to Kuala Lumpur. Despite having used 8 to 10 hours to wait for the bus, on the road and even stuck in a jam, even though I was tired, I still persisted, because I know this is what I want.

I made new friends. Although we met for only a couple of hours, but I felt their sincerity and care. Thinking back of two women I have met, one who performed Chinese operas close to 20 years, and another, an ordinary chicken rice seller, who know exactly the kind of life they want and actually shaped it out today. Though my lips were sealed, but I had a sense of awe and respect for them, especially the Chinese opera performer ‘auntie’, who, today, led her life in full free control. She gave me a few tips, but at that time, I still doubted myself, “Can I actually do it?”

This morning, when I joined them for breakfast, he said this to me, “I believe you can do it. I await the time when all of us succeed!” Still, I doubted myself…

On the journey back to Johor Bahru, I picked up my phone to play that video clip again…
The background song of that clip – “You Raise Me Up”
The opening words of that clip – “Because We Believe That Life Can Be Better”

He: “I believe you can do it…”
She: “If I, an uneducated person can do it, you guys can also do it!”

“Believe”. Aside my own family members and several friends, it is seldom that people whom I have known for less than a year ever used that word to me. A complete stranger, a friend whom I have only known for 5 months, because of their belief in me, they believed I could do it. The more I watched that clip, the more emotions are ‘provoked’, tears started to flow…

12 April 2009, 7.17 pm, when the bus approached the Skudai toll, when the clip was about to end, the channel that the bus radio was tuned in to played “You Raise Me Up”…




Thursday, April 2, 2009

虚伪

即使是用心去和别人搞好及维持关系,有些人就是喜欢搞划清界线。真的是很虚伪!虽然说平时要对人小心提防,但明明都相识了一场,而且是已经超出了三个月,虽然称不上好朋友,但是连普通朋友这个称号都不值得挂上吗?有些人就是不要把心门开的广阔一点,这个样子,怎么去感受到别人与他们交情的诚意呢?这样的人会快乐吗?我也不知道答案,就由老天爷回答吧。

但是要是现今社会的每个人都要这样做的话,怪不得我们今日的社会大部分的人会对左邻右舍的人都毫不相干。回想看,虽然说现代化对社会是个很重要的元素,但是步伐弄得太快,往往都会把一些建造一个真正的幸福繁荣社会的元素给牺牲掉,尤其是人情。这社会还有人情味在吗?“有”这答案是肯定的,但是往往都在发生患难的时候才拿出来表现,平时就不当一回事。这难道不虚伪吗?现代人,珍惜眼前的幸福吧!别等到失去了,后悔就来不及了。

话说回来,要是要把界线划得那么清楚的话,我毫不受影响。因为就是把界线划得那么清楚,才使我得了力量以及肯定去创造我要的未来、我的梦想。这一路走来虽然还不到一年,但是也感受到了相识仅仅四个月的伙伴的热情和诚恳。虽然四个月算短,但就这样热谈了起来,感觉上好像认识了十年的老朋友。这个环境比现实社会来的好几万倍!以每个人为‘人’平等来看待,不分高下,即使有再多的眼泪,但也是热的,出自于感动的,不是悲伤或气愤所导致的。其实老天爷给我们这世界是很美好、很简单的,但是就是人自己本身却要去复杂化它罢了。回归到原本吧!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

你脸部青春痘的位置意味着什么?

冒痘痘的位置可能顯示出身體的警訊,你知道嗎?
你可能需要看看是否真的該保養身體了。

額頭代表心火旺、血液循環有問題,可能是過於勞心傷神。
這類的人脾氣較不好,應養成早睡早起的習慣,睡眠充足,並多喝水。

鼻子如果長在鼻樑,代表脊椎骨可能出現問題;如果是長在鼻頭處,可能是胃火大、消化系統異常;若在鼻頭兩側,就可能跟卵巢機能或生殖系統有關。

下巴表示腎功能受損或內分泌系統失調。女生容易在下巴周圍長痘痘的可能是月事不順所引起的。

左邊臉頰可能是肝功能不順暢,如肝臟的分泌、解毒或造血等功能出了狀況。

右邊臉頰可能是肺部功能失常。
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Did you know that where your pimples are located signal different messages about your body condition. You may wish to check and review on how you are going to take care of your body.

FOREHEAD
Pimples at the forehead signal that the heart is ‘burning’, i.e. the blood circulation may have some problems, probably due to overloading of the heart. Usually people like these are short-tempered. They should make it a habit to turn in and wake up early (i.e. have enough sleep) and drink lots of water.

NOSE
If the pimple happens to appear on the skin that covers the nasal bone, it could mean your vertebrae may have problems. If it appears at the nose tip, it could signal of ‘fire’ in the stomach (i.e. problematic digestion). If it appears on either side of the nose tip, it could mean the reproductive organs need attention (especially ovaries for women).

CHIN
Pimples that appear at the chin may signal that the kidney is not functioning properly or the endocrine system is not working properly. Pimples that appear on the chin of females are usually due to irregular menstruation.

LEFT CHEEK
The liver may not be functioning properly, i.e. problems in the function of liver secretion/discharge, detoxification and formation of blood cells.

RIGHT CHEEK
The lungs may not be working properly.


摘自《我,真的很不错》
With courtesy of owenpua.blogspot.com

什么对一个人而言是最重要的?

有个富人临死前在交待后事,“我的房子留给你。”他的太太一边听一边哭着说:“老爷你不要说了。”老爷继续交待:“我的车子也留给你。”太太哭得更伤心了,“老爷你不要再说了。”老爷喘了一口气,“哦,还有,我最心爱的高尔夫球杆也留给你。你不打,可以给你的下一任老公打。”他太太哭得更厉害了,“老爷,你不要再说了,他不会打的,因为他是左撇子。”

A rich man upon his death bed told his wife, "This house shall go to you." The wife cried while listening and said, "Please, Master. Don't say anymore." The man continued, "My car shall go to you too." The wife sobbed even further, "Please, don't say again." The old man gasped for a mouthful of breath and said, "Oh yes, I almost forgot. That favourite golf club of mine, I shall leave it to you too. Even if you don't use it, you can pass it to your next husband." This time around, the wife cried out even louder, "Oh Master, please don't say anymore! Rest assured it won't be used, 'cos he's left-handed!"
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不是说让你准备着某种的‘备胎’,而是想说,对你而言,你的身体才是最重要的。没有了身体,什么理想,什么追求,什么梦想,什么目标都是空谈。只有健康最重要。当我们先追求健康时,一切随之而来。

This is not to ask you to prepare some sort of 'spare tyre'. This message is to remind one that the human body matters most to every single individual. Without the body, any kind of aspiration, goals, dreams and objectives are just empty talk. Only health is the most important. When one puts health as the utmost priority, everything will come in one's way.


《快乐健康法》(Steps To A Happy Healthy Lifestyle)
梁志达 Steven Liang Zhida

現代人

现代的人要健康真的是很不容易,因为要生病很简单,只要是持续做错了一些事情,不断吃错了几样食物,经常搞乱了平静的心情,这样的话,想要生病就生病咯!

就因此,难道现代人真的是没救了吗?当然不是。身体是我们的朋友而不是敌人,只要是做对事情吃对食物,身体一定会乐见其成。

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In order for modern day people to attain health may pose certain difficulties, because in order for one to fall sick can be very easy. As long as one continues to do the wrong thing and eat the wrong food, thus messing up the original ‘calmness’ of the body, posing a large potential to fall sick as one wishes.

Because of that, does it mean to say that modern day people don’t have hope anymore? Of course not! The human body is a friend to oneself, not a foe. As long as one does the right thing and eat the correct food, the body shall respond accordingly.
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Bagi mana-mana generasi moden untuk mendapat kesihatan optimal adalah sesuatu yang kelihatan tidak mudah, kerana untuk seseorang jatuh sakit adalah sesuatu yang amat senang. Selagi seseorang itu terus melakukan perkara yang salah dan mengambil makanan yang tidak betul, lantaran kerap mengganggu ketenangan yang asal. Jadi, jikalau seseorang ingin jatuh sakit, mudah kan?

Oleh sebab itu, adakah ini bermakna bahawa generasi moden sudah tiada harapan lagi? Tentu sekali tidak! Badan manusia merupakan sahabat kepada diri sendiri, bukannya musuh. Selagi seseorang itu melakukan perkara yang betul dan mengambil makanan yang betul, nescaya badan kita akan menghasilkan tindak balas yang sepatutnya.



《快乐健康法》(Steps To A Happy Healthy Lifestyle)
梁志达 Steven Liang Zhida


Friday, March 20, 2009

我的一位仁兄……

我不否认我的为人会有点冲动,甚至没有通过大脑深思熟虑而钻牛角尖,带来不必要的麻烦。结果,就麻烦了一位仁兄。

这位仁兄今年年仅28岁,至于他相识大概4个月。虽然隔开大约400公里,但他也给我不少指点,人也很亲切。我似乎有了个哥哥。嘴上虽说要求帮忙,但是其实换个角度来看是他替我做事。我觉得不好受。我不可以这样,怎么可以叫人替我做事呢?怎么可以叫别人替我做一件事,到最后成就由我来领取?感觉上很自私。自己的东西得自己去处理,但是我却因为匆忙向达到目标而去麻烦别人了。

不管,我今天得写个电邮给他向他道歉。我不再做这种事情了。我给该电邮写了这最后一句:“我们依然还是朋友吗?”

过了大约1小时,他回复了。吓!他竟然没谴责我。这到底是怎么一回事呢?

“我俩都是往同一个方向行走,为同样长远的目标奋斗。我帮你,并没有对我任何损失。只要帮到你成功,也是我的个人成就,因为我帮你达到顶峰。别忘了,你在整个过程中也有付出努力。成就仍属于我俩,无分谁或谁应领取该成绩。请勿因为这一点小事而感到错愕,也别想太多了。别再有这种消极的想法了,因为消极的想法并无助于达到成功顶峰的努力……”

康闻兄,谢谢你……

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I do not deny the fact that I'm a bit impulsive, to the extent of getting myself into unnecessary problems without thinking in-depth. In the end, I caused a problem to a 'brother' of mine.

He's only 28, and we only known each other for about 4 months. Despite being away from each other of about 400 km, he still gave me a lot of tips and guidance in the spirit of friendship. It felt like I had an elder brother. Though it may sound like asking help from him, but in a way, it can be seen as asking him to do it for me. I felt very uncomfortable after that. How can I be actually so selfish to ask someone to do something for me, only for me to reap its produce in the end? I felt really disgusted at myself. I should have handled it myself, but because of my anxiety to reach my goal, I have 'dragged' him down.

I couldn't care less any more, I must write him an e-mail to seek for his apology. I will not do this again. I ended the e-mail with the sentence, "Are we still friends?"

After about an hour, he replied. His reply surprised me in a way that he actually didn't reprimand me. Just what is going on?

"We are both walking in the same direction, fighting for the same goal. The fact that I help you doesn't make me lose anything. As long as I help you to succeed, it is also an achievement of mine. It's a win-win situation. Do not forget that you also played a crucial role in the process. Success belongs to everyone of us, there's no distinguishing between who does it belong to. Please do not feel guilty over this small matter and don't think too much. Do not have any negative thoughts anymore, as they hamper your efforts to the top......"


Thank you, 'Brother' Owen ......



Tuesday, March 17, 2009

笑容

我昨晚犯下了一个大忌。

昨晚在忙着把之前在Facebook写的笔记上载至部落格时,却一时无意的‘得罪’了一位正在与我在线上洽谈的女生。

或许是因为让她想起从前的事,凡是男生在任何情况之下对她说:“whatever!”(不管啦!),她也许会觉得她所谈的不被重视,情绪好像被割了一刀,眼眶中留下眼泪。
这事情已经是第二次了。
我最怕就是女生流眼泪了。
“男生是土做的,女生是水做的”
这一句话没错,女生只要留下眼泪,男生就好像垮了。

而且一般的女生在情绪波动时,虽然口说“没事”,但是很难保证她情绪真的没事。
所以,我只好低声下气把自己形容成非常卑贱,称她为王后。
“陛下,您大人有大量,小的恳求您原谅啊!”
吓得她差点不知要再说什么,一直说没事,没事。
但是她一直这样说,我始终不敢确定她真的没事。

结果,我就建议她在纸张上画出一张脸,并标明我的名字。
任由她在那脸上怎样画都好,而且确保一定要够丑。
她问:“真的要这样做吗?”
我答:“如果你还在生我的气,请你这样做。”

今天早上,当我查我的Facebook户口时,在电脑荧幕底,出现了个告示,说我被她在某张照片里标了名字。我就查查看。天啊,她还真的画耶!



不止,她还把该照片上载到她的部落格上。
哎,真的是丢脸……
不过,反正这是我应得的,没什么好丢脸。

她在部落格写道:“我发现自己把这东西画出来之后,我正在开怀大笑。”……